Patience...

Patience. what a simple, yet such a difficult thing to posses.

Yesterday was one of the hardest days that I've had in a while. Laramie and I are no longer together due to some personal reasons of his. I was... am, devastated. It definitely was not how I was expecting to start my day.

I am trying really hard to wrap my mind around these events, and trust God's plan for my life. However that's much easier said than done.

It is especially hard for me because I really thought he could be the one, and it made me feel like I wasn't good enough to fight for.

I am doing my best to not let this run my life. To not let it be a reason to be angry with God. Not to let it stunt my growth, or decrease my confidence. Not to let it get in the way of my happiness or pursuit of the Father. But like I said, much easier said than done.

I want to be known for the boldness of my faith, and my love for our maker. It is hard to do that when obstacles like this are thrown my way, but I am determined to rise above, and continue to put my life in His hands. To lay it all at His feet.

I felt like my life was finally falling into place. Like I was finally living out God's will for my life. ...So it's hard to understand why this is happening.

But after talking to my mom and nana, they reminded me that when we are on a path of righteousness, we will be tested; curveballs will be thrown, and the enemy seeks to disrupt this kind of path.

I am trusting Him. Trusting in the wait, embracing the uncertainty, and enjoying the beauty of what is to become in this season of waiting.

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What the Bible says about patience

Proverbs 16:32 talks about how having patience is worth more than being powerful, and that possessing self control its more powerful than to conquer a city.

Genesis 24 Jacob displays a beautiful display working and waiting 14 years for Rachel.

"Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance.." Romans 5:3

Even in our waiting, our suffering, and impatience, He is working.

"But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong, and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good, and you endure it, this is commendable before God. To this your were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example that you should follow His steps. 1 Peter 2:20-21

Listening to what God is telling you, and going through difficult experiences to follow in His will, is what He wants from. us.

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